My best friend of 56 years and I were walking one day last Spring. I was doing some venting about the masking, harm being done to businesses, etc., and that I thought the vaccines were not working as promised (I am unvaxxed, she is vaxxed). She continued forward and said, "I just follow the science and do what the CDC recommends." I have never come so close to punching anyone in the face! She was in the "excellerated classes" in school. I have learned over the years that booksmart is a different animal from common sense, and this was a clear cut example! She and I have never spoken of this again. We walk infrequently now, and I have really lost respect for her.
You’re not alone. I’ve become alienated from lifelong “ friends”, my neighbors and half of my family. Ironically, the black community that hated my mere presence setting foot on their turf.. and yes, they do consider it turf, have become trusted friends and family once the ice was broken regarding the vaccines, lockdowns and our shared distrust of government. There’s something remarkable to be learned when you become a victim of what others have long considered themselves. A disposable commodity of a government experiment.
My brilliant beloved daughter and her husband, a prodigy, both radiation oncologists at Miami’s most prestigious hospital- 30 years of age- he’s the department chief AND a transplantation surgeon- roll their eyes.
They, with my husband’s all too willing participation, coerced me to get the jab. I’d already recovered from Covid. My husband’s cousin, an allergist/ epidemiologist with a large private practice gave me a care package. HCQ, Zithromax, Prednisone, Vitamin D and zinc. Amazing! Not good enough to satisfy my brilliant daughter, son in law and husband, I took the first jab with tears rolling down my cheeks. I’m not anti-vax. It was THIS “ vax”. Nothing unusual occurred. And then the second. Nothing felt right. My head was throbbing, my neck became really stiff. A week and a half later, I was having difficulty forming a sentence. My feet were numb and later that evening it had crept up my thighs. I begged my husband , slurring, to call an ambulance. I’d had a stroke and a large clot had developed in my calf. No history of any blood pressure, heart , hematological or neurological issues. 6 nights in the hospital and have not felt well since. Always exhausted.
My daughter who so scoffed at her crazy mother is now having menstrual problems and fertility concerns.My neighbor who still refuses to so much as say hello lost her seventeen year old son to “ heart issues”. He was a star rugby player at his “ prep school”. But it had nothing to do with the jabs, of course. My older daughter has twice had Covid since her vax and missed her sister’s wedding. I’ve had Covid since the jab. Forgiveness so ask the “ experts”? Rot in hell! I’m Jewish. Old Testament justice suddenly seems well deserved. Faustus and Gates first
I am without words when reading you. I cannot even imagine living with someone who is trying to convince me getting the jab - it would feel like they completely disregard my personal choice. And then the effects you are having, my heart aches for you. I hope with all my heart you find support with the black community who share your values and that your effects will bring you again closer to your children - I guess after these effects they cannot call you "crazy" anymore...? I am praying you will get better.
Thanks for sharing this experience, which I recognize so well. I rather had the feeling that especially the "booksmart" people were more prone to believing in "science", as if they don't have a clear inner compass anymore? Or perhaps because the system higher educated people are moving in is so much built in hierarchies and that your progress up the ladder depends on you going along what the boss says? I have recently learned that "thinking" does not just happen in the mind, but also the heart and the gut. So I think I will refrain from calling people who are "just" book-smart "intelligent", if they are not capable to open their heart to their fellow human being and are not able to listen to their guts if something is distinctly off...
Marion, Neil Oliver made such a poignant confession during one of his marvelous podcasts. As gutted and hopeless as he’d become, Neil was able to find solace in learning he is not alone. He is not crazy, paranoid, off the rails or isolated as we’d all come to believe. The single positive emerging from the incredible darkness we never believed could happen in a post Third Reich or Soviet Union… what we foolishly considered anomalous sagas we would never again allow… is happening in the most nefarious,insidious and now active global takeover. While we were complacent, distracted and purposely divided. A new alignment has formed. The censored, blackballed, red pilled canceled and former “ enemies” have united behind the curtains. We’ve discovered the deliberate manipulation that successfully divided us to the degree making sane dialogue an impossibility. The issues that have torn us apart seem very petty when we’re all facing an end to our sentient humanity and existentialism. We will not survive this without uniting to fight back against the evil that will end us all.
Your comment brought up (again) a feeling I had several times... you write "we thought we knew our big brothers - and it was revealed we did not". I felt several times during the last years that it was like a curtain was drawn from my eyes. As if I had "whitewashed" some relationships, always in the hope that "deep down we love each other" (as concerns my sister) or "she just had a bad day but essentially she is a good person and or relationship is going smoothly" (if something was off with a friend). And when looking really honestly at the state of my relationships, I had to admit that there had been big red flags for a very long time and I had chosen to ignore them. So in a sense, the whole Covid insanity just brought to the forefront divisions/incongruities which had been there for a long time, and now were not possible to disregard or shove under the carpet anymore. Do you also recognize this feeling or as regards your big brothers, were you really convinced that they would put you and your twin sister first because they love you, no matter what, and did this come as a real shock?
Sorry Marion - just now getting around to replying to you.
I agree with you - there had been a few red flags. For instance, the fact that they are staunch liberals. My sister and I are conservatives - like our parents and grandparents. They would both makes comments around us and our husbands about how they loathed Trump - even to the point about killing him - which horrified my sister and I that they would say such a thing out loud. And yes, we too ignored them. However, having said this, their behavior was still a shock. My twin and I say that looking back we should have been prepared for this. The brother that is closest to us had the MOST abhorrent behavior. We think the many shots he's had has changed his personality. Naomi Wolf talks about this. The last time I saw him - after sending him Bobby Kennedy's book, A Letter to Liberals - he told me I was uneducated and in a cult. He said kiss me goodbye because this is the last time you will probably ever see me. And I'm sure that's true because he now has blood clots (his wife sent us a letter to which my sister and I did not respond - she took no accountability for what has happened to our relationship). It's BEYOND heartbreaking Marion. Thank God for the faith that my sister and I have in Him. I do not think we could have come to the place of acceptance if not.
What a wonderful story. Thank you so much for sharing. It gives me hope that the longest friendship I've had in my life (since kindergarten) might be mended after all...
Wonderful post, Marion. I relate to everything you say about the different friendship tiers now. And re that cafe: I live in Melbourne and have no idea where that cafe is. If I ever find out, I am heading straight there!!
My most proud COVID moment came on the eve of the removing of mask mandates in Washington State, May, 2022. I am not vaxed and only wore a mask when forced to at my dental office.
On this fine Spring day, as I walked to the entrance of our town’s library, a tiny, white-haired, very elderly woman walked toward me wearing a chartreuse-green mask. As she came closer she began to verbally assault me; berating me for not having a mask on.
At this point I had had it! Two years of tyrannical mandates imposed by a dictatorial governor had my buttons primed and ready to fire. Looking her straight in the eyes peering so hostilely at me from above that butt ugly green mask, I firmly and quite loudly told her: I don’t need a mask you Fucking Nazi!!!! I then continued walking calmly on and into the library and as I did I heard someone behind me applauding in approval.
I share this true story often because: 1) I want to know who among my friends “gets it,” and 2) I want to know who I can trust. This has been a great litmus test. Thank you for allowing me to share. I’ll be interested in the responses.
I so much relate. I keep on appearances (for the sake of the children) but I do not feel really honest with it (because I am hiding big parts of myself and not addressing all the hurt inflicted in the last year, so that stands between us). I wish you loving arms to hold you when you are grieving the loss of your mother <3
Thank you. We both see the world through different eyes, I have to live my life understanding that my government is trying to kill me an my children. I have to believe it as this is where the evidence has brought me. I hope one day she too will understand and join me.
My best friend of 56 years and I were walking one day last Spring. I was doing some venting about the masking, harm being done to businesses, etc., and that I thought the vaccines were not working as promised (I am unvaxxed, she is vaxxed). She continued forward and said, "I just follow the science and do what the CDC recommends." I have never come so close to punching anyone in the face! She was in the "excellerated classes" in school. I have learned over the years that booksmart is a different animal from common sense, and this was a clear cut example! She and I have never spoken of this again. We walk infrequently now, and I have really lost respect for her.
You’re not alone. I’ve become alienated from lifelong “ friends”, my neighbors and half of my family. Ironically, the black community that hated my mere presence setting foot on their turf.. and yes, they do consider it turf, have become trusted friends and family once the ice was broken regarding the vaccines, lockdowns and our shared distrust of government. There’s something remarkable to be learned when you become a victim of what others have long considered themselves. A disposable commodity of a government experiment.
My brilliant beloved daughter and her husband, a prodigy, both radiation oncologists at Miami’s most prestigious hospital- 30 years of age- he’s the department chief AND a transplantation surgeon- roll their eyes.
They, with my husband’s all too willing participation, coerced me to get the jab. I’d already recovered from Covid. My husband’s cousin, an allergist/ epidemiologist with a large private practice gave me a care package. HCQ, Zithromax, Prednisone, Vitamin D and zinc. Amazing! Not good enough to satisfy my brilliant daughter, son in law and husband, I took the first jab with tears rolling down my cheeks. I’m not anti-vax. It was THIS “ vax”. Nothing unusual occurred. And then the second. Nothing felt right. My head was throbbing, my neck became really stiff. A week and a half later, I was having difficulty forming a sentence. My feet were numb and later that evening it had crept up my thighs. I begged my husband , slurring, to call an ambulance. I’d had a stroke and a large clot had developed in my calf. No history of any blood pressure, heart , hematological or neurological issues. 6 nights in the hospital and have not felt well since. Always exhausted.
My daughter who so scoffed at her crazy mother is now having menstrual problems and fertility concerns.My neighbor who still refuses to so much as say hello lost her seventeen year old son to “ heart issues”. He was a star rugby player at his “ prep school”. But it had nothing to do with the jabs, of course. My older daughter has twice had Covid since her vax and missed her sister’s wedding. I’ve had Covid since the jab. Forgiveness so ask the “ experts”? Rot in hell! I’m Jewish. Old Testament justice suddenly seems well deserved. Faustus and Gates first
Dear Gail,
I am without words when reading you. I cannot even imagine living with someone who is trying to convince me getting the jab - it would feel like they completely disregard my personal choice. And then the effects you are having, my heart aches for you. I hope with all my heart you find support with the black community who share your values and that your effects will bring you again closer to your children - I guess after these effects they cannot call you "crazy" anymore...? I am praying you will get better.
Gail. I’m so very sorry to hear your story. It’s heartbreaking.
Are you familiar with the flccc.net and their vax injury protocol?
Gail, I am so very sorry for all you have been through! What do they radiation oncologists have to say about your reaction to the 2nd jab?
Thanks for sharing this experience, which I recognize so well. I rather had the feeling that especially the "booksmart" people were more prone to believing in "science", as if they don't have a clear inner compass anymore? Or perhaps because the system higher educated people are moving in is so much built in hierarchies and that your progress up the ladder depends on you going along what the boss says? I have recently learned that "thinking" does not just happen in the mind, but also the heart and the gut. So I think I will refrain from calling people who are "just" book-smart "intelligent", if they are not capable to open their heart to their fellow human being and are not able to listen to their guts if something is distinctly off...
Marion, Neil Oliver made such a poignant confession during one of his marvelous podcasts. As gutted and hopeless as he’d become, Neil was able to find solace in learning he is not alone. He is not crazy, paranoid, off the rails or isolated as we’d all come to believe. The single positive emerging from the incredible darkness we never believed could happen in a post Third Reich or Soviet Union… what we foolishly considered anomalous sagas we would never again allow… is happening in the most nefarious,insidious and now active global takeover. While we were complacent, distracted and purposely divided. A new alignment has formed. The censored, blackballed, red pilled canceled and former “ enemies” have united behind the curtains. We’ve discovered the deliberate manipulation that successfully divided us to the degree making sane dialogue an impossibility. The issues that have torn us apart seem very petty when we’re all facing an end to our sentient humanity and existentialism. We will not survive this without uniting to fight back against the evil that will end us all.
Dear Marion. Thank you for this beautiful, heartfelt, heartbreaking reflection. Sadly we will go to our graves with the scars on our hearts.
My twin sister and I thought we knew our big brothers. It was heartbreakingly revealed that we did not. 😢
Dear Laura!
Your comment brought up (again) a feeling I had several times... you write "we thought we knew our big brothers - and it was revealed we did not". I felt several times during the last years that it was like a curtain was drawn from my eyes. As if I had "whitewashed" some relationships, always in the hope that "deep down we love each other" (as concerns my sister) or "she just had a bad day but essentially she is a good person and or relationship is going smoothly" (if something was off with a friend). And when looking really honestly at the state of my relationships, I had to admit that there had been big red flags for a very long time and I had chosen to ignore them. So in a sense, the whole Covid insanity just brought to the forefront divisions/incongruities which had been there for a long time, and now were not possible to disregard or shove under the carpet anymore. Do you also recognize this feeling or as regards your big brothers, were you really convinced that they would put you and your twin sister first because they love you, no matter what, and did this come as a real shock?
Sorry Marion - just now getting around to replying to you.
I agree with you - there had been a few red flags. For instance, the fact that they are staunch liberals. My sister and I are conservatives - like our parents and grandparents. They would both makes comments around us and our husbands about how they loathed Trump - even to the point about killing him - which horrified my sister and I that they would say such a thing out loud. And yes, we too ignored them. However, having said this, their behavior was still a shock. My twin and I say that looking back we should have been prepared for this. The brother that is closest to us had the MOST abhorrent behavior. We think the many shots he's had has changed his personality. Naomi Wolf talks about this. The last time I saw him - after sending him Bobby Kennedy's book, A Letter to Liberals - he told me I was uneducated and in a cult. He said kiss me goodbye because this is the last time you will probably ever see me. And I'm sure that's true because he now has blood clots (his wife sent us a letter to which my sister and I did not respond - she took no accountability for what has happened to our relationship). It's BEYOND heartbreaking Marion. Thank God for the faith that my sister and I have in Him. I do not think we could have come to the place of acceptance if not.
Thank you for beautifully expressing for all of us unvaxed❤️
Marion. Thank you for your story. It really hit home for me as I can totally relate to everything you said!
Thank you so much Lisa. Sending you big hugs. We are not alone!
What a wonderful story. Thank you so much for sharing. It gives me hope that the longest friendship I've had in my life (since kindergarten) might be mended after all...
Wonderful post, Marion. I relate to everything you say about the different friendship tiers now. And re that cafe: I live in Melbourne and have no idea where that cafe is. If I ever find out, I am heading straight there!!
My most proud COVID moment came on the eve of the removing of mask mandates in Washington State, May, 2022. I am not vaxed and only wore a mask when forced to at my dental office.
On this fine Spring day, as I walked to the entrance of our town’s library, a tiny, white-haired, very elderly woman walked toward me wearing a chartreuse-green mask. As she came closer she began to verbally assault me; berating me for not having a mask on.
At this point I had had it! Two years of tyrannical mandates imposed by a dictatorial governor had my buttons primed and ready to fire. Looking her straight in the eyes peering so hostilely at me from above that butt ugly green mask, I firmly and quite loudly told her: I don’t need a mask you Fucking Nazi!!!! I then continued walking calmly on and into the library and as I did I heard someone behind me applauding in approval.
I share this true story often because: 1) I want to know who among my friends “gets it,” and 2) I want to know who I can trust. This has been a great litmus test. Thank you for allowing me to share. I’ll be interested in the responses.
I've fallen out with my Mother. It seems irreparable.
Dear Katarina,
I so much relate. I keep on appearances (for the sake of the children) but I do not feel really honest with it (because I am hiding big parts of myself and not addressing all the hurt inflicted in the last year, so that stands between us). I wish you loving arms to hold you when you are grieving the loss of your mother <3
Thank you. We both see the world through different eyes, I have to live my life understanding that my government is trying to kill me an my children. I have to believe it as this is where the evidence has brought me. I hope one day she too will understand and join me.